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If we’re honest, we’d admit that we’re all waiting for something. Some of you may be waiting to accomplish a goal that you’ve been working towards for years. Others may be waiting on the right life partner, or direction from God in their lives. The point is that we all know what it’s like to wait, and if we’re honest again, we’d admit that waiting isn’t always easy. In fact, it can be extremely difficult.


For the past three years, I’ve been on a journey with God to become a better version of myself. I asked God to make me “whole”- not in a sense that I wanted to be perfect, but I needed Him to heal me of the emotional wounds that I had been nurturing for years. I asked Him to bring healing to the areas of inadequacy, self-doubt, discouragement, and so many more that were constantly attacking my peace of mind and happiness. At the time, I had been reading the Word, and I knew that the way I had been thinking about myself and my life up to that point was not what God had called me to, so I prayed an intentional prayer and began my journey with the Lord. I told God that as He took me on this journey, I wanted to be healed from these things. Honestly, when I began to walk the path to healing, I didn’t believe that the healing process would happen overnight, but I did believe that it would happen sooner than later.


Fast forward to three years. I’m still on my journey to healing. During this time, there has been tremendous growth. There are areas in my life where I can see the maturity and the healing that God has brought, but there is still a lot of growing that I have to do. There are still areas in my life that I struggle with, and although I wish they’d just magically go away overnight, the Holy Spirit always reminds me that the healing that I desire will come, once I continue to remain in Him (John 15:4).


What are you waiting for in your life right now? What are you relying on the Lord for? Is it to become a better version of yourself like me, and find wholeness and healing? Is it to accomplish that goal you’ve desperately been working towards? I encourage you to wait on the Lord, and trust that He is with you on the journey. Most importantly, if you haven’t already, I encourage you to welcome Him into the journey. He will not only lead you on the right path (Psalm 23:3), but He gives you the strength to finish strong (Philippians 1:6). One thing my own journey has taught me is that God’s ways are not like ours, nor are His thoughts like ours (Isaiah 55:8-9). We may not always understand why He doesn’t allow certain things to happen overnight in our lives, but we do know that He is a good Father and He will not withhold anything good from His children (Matthew 7:11).


So, I encourage you to wait on the Lord, be of good courage, and He will surely strengthen your heart as you continue on your journey (Psalm 27:14). Don’t be discouraged. Don’t give up because it seems as though what you’re believing for is taking too long. Continue to trust God; continue to hold fast to His word and His promises. Continue to wait on the Lord.


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This is a piece that I wrote for Becoming Magazine's latest issue. It encouraged my heart after reading it again, and I wanted to share it with you and remind you to wait on the Lord. Check out www.becomingmagazine.org for free access to all of their magazine issues.

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As I spent time reading my Bible this morning, I wrote down a list of questions that I had for Jesus. They were mainly about this season of my life and what He expects of me. At the end of that list, I wrote, “Please, help me Jesus”. I became increasingly aware of how much I needed Him to live the sort of life that He wants me to live. As I wrote that simple prayer, it dawned on me just how many times a day I ask the Lord to help me. In the moment, I began to condemn myself. I felt that it was somehow wrong that my constant prayer is asking Jesus for help. However, just as fast as I began to condemn myself, the Holy Spirit reminded me that this is what God wants us to do. He wants us to ask Him for His help. He wants us to come to Him (Matthew 11:28), because, truthfully, we can’t do much of anything without Him.


For the past couple of months, I’ve been praying that simple prayer. To tell you the truth, it’s the only prayer that I can muster up some days. I would wake up and be confronted with the reality of everything that’s on my plate, and I would whisper those four words, “Please, help me Jesus”. The amazing thing is that, in the moment, it really feels like nothing has changed. Sometimes, I pray that prayer, and I still feel weary, discouraged, and without help; however, as I continue on in my day, I feel God strengthening me. I feel Him assuring me that He is with me and He is for me. I feel Him reminding me that He hears my prayers and He will help me, because I asked Him to. I’ve realized that help is always available to us, it’s just that oftentimes, we are afraid to ask for it. We feel afraid to ask God for help because we fool ourselves into thinking that He will somehow be disappointed in us for struggling in an area. This was the case for me. But, God reminded me that if I don’t ask for His help, how can I expect to overcome what I’m facing? He reminded me that I don’t have to be ashamed to come to Him with my issues and the areas that I desperately need His help in. He welcomes it; He takes great delight in helping His children.


I encourage you today to ask Jesus for help. I think that sometimes we forget how kind Jesus is. He’s not waiting for us to come to Him so that He can condemn us for struggling; He wants to help us. He wants to help us do better and live our lives in a manner worthy of Him. Instead of condemning yourself for struggling in certain areas, go to Jesus for the help that you need. The Bible says that God is an ever-present help in times of trouble (Psalm 46:1). This means that He is always ready and able to help us. What are you struggling with today? Is it idolatry, prayerlessness, unforgiveness, fear, or even self-condemnation? I encourage you to ask Jesus for help. Take those things to Him. Write down a list if you have to. Sometimes, we make things more difficult than they have to be. We worry and stress over areas in our lives that we struggle in, when it really is as simple as asking God for help. It really is that simple. We all have areas of our lives that we need help in. Instead of trying to figure things out on our own, let’s turn to Jesus, our ever-present help in times of trouble.


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God is kind.


I have heard that saying practically my entire life; but, I’ve realized that in order for you to truly believe it, then you must experience His kindness for yourself. This past week, whenever I prayed, I found myself becoming overwhelmed by the kindness of God. In fact, just a few moments ago, I pretty much broke down in prayer, because I felt so grateful for how kind God is to me everyday of my life. The thing is, not everything in my life is great right now. There are a lot of things that I wish were different and a lot less stressful, but, each day, I can feel God reminding me to keep going. Each day, I find myself feeling a little bit stronger than the day before, and a little bit more hopeful than the day before. This is only possible because my Heavenly Father is kind.


Oftentimes, we think of God as a tyrant sitting in heaven, waiting for us to mess up; but, He is not. He is a kind Father, and I have found that it’s often the most difficult seasons of our lives that reveal His kindness to us. At least, this is the case for me. Can I tell you? If it wasn’t for the kindness of God, I would have dropped out of graduate school. There have been so many moments along my journey that I wrestled with the idea of just dropping out because it was so hard. However, in those moments, I would literally feel God speaking to my heart, encouraging me that I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength (Philippians 4:13) and reminding me that I am taught of the Lord (Isaiah 54:13). Because of the kindness of God, I found the courage to keep going, and now, I am almost at the finish line of my academic career. Thinking back, I can’t help but tear up, because I vividly remember many, many moments sitting in front of my laptop, feeling completely hopeless and defeated. I remember thinking that I could never overcome this giant. Yet, in His kindness, God refused to let me give up on my dreams.


I have so many more examples of how God’s kindness has transformed my life, and I wish that I can share them all with you, but this post would be way too long. Nevertheless, what I can share is that God really is kind. He is a kind Father. I have proven this over and over again in my life. In my darkest moments, He always shows me a glimmer of light. In those moments when I feel like He will condemn me, He instead welcomes me with open arms, reminding me of His love. If you find yourself doubting the kindness of God because of your present circumstances, I pray that my story is a reminder. My life is far from perfect right now, but because of God’s kindness, I can smile, and I have so much hope that better days are ahead. Sometimes, I wish that I can fully describe how dark many moments of my life were, yet, God came in and comforted me in ways that no one on the earth could. He is so kind. If there is nothing else that you get from this blog post, I pray that you know within the depths of your being that He is kind. In fact, I pray that you experience His kindness for yourself.


God is kind. Meditate on that truth today.




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